What’s with Writing?

Day in and day out, all I do is write. A lot of people would ask me, “What is it with writing that you adore so much?” The truth is, I’ve tried and tried, but I could never come up with the perfect answer or explanation for that particular question because, really, it had me thinking, what is it with writing that I love so much?

When I am writing, the world seemed limitless and so were my words. Somehow, I feel like when I am in front of my laptop, my hands perfectly coordinate with my keyboard – as if the words flow naturally. It’s like inhaling life itself and penning them down to make every unexpected moment frozen in time.

Every composition is written with a trinket of my blood – siphoning every bit of my heart so I could come up with the perfect prose, the perfect article, the perfect letter – each article symbolizes a different battle scar. So when I write about love, I hope you know that each article took a lot of digging deep into the depths of my heart – every article took a piece of my heart to justify your presence in my midst.

Remember that pens are mightier than swords and each layer I peel out from myself to write about the magnificence of your existence in my life – how your scars are nothing but blemishes to a flawless exterior or how your stare felt like the sun touching my skin or how your smile can turn a stormy day into summer – I am slowly putting down my shield.

You see, every story I write is a moment of weakness; it’s as if I am letting you peek straight into my soul – as if I am slowly destroying the walls surrounding my heart – and slowly opening up to you and to the world before us.

What are you most afraid of?

There is another me in a different dimension where I do not feel like this. Another dimension where my heart fits perfectly into my chest and I am not afraid of the things that make me feel alive.

It sucks that I live in this world where everything feels like it’s going to tear me apart. It’s like I’m always waiting for something to snap — for the sky to fall, for the ground to break, for myself to keep falling into an infinite abyss — always waiting for something to crash.

Love taught me that at one point in time, everyone I’ve ever loved had taken a part of me and nothing will ever be left for myself but the bruises, scars, and burns. Continue reading

Stuff I’ve Been Reading Lately #3

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BOOKS READ:

  • Angels & Demons (Robert Langdon, #1) by Dan Brown
  • Billionaire Rider (Fortune Riders MC, #1) by Lexy Timms

BOOKS BOUGHT:

  • The Da Vinci Code (Robert Langdon, #2) by Dan Brown
  • Murder On the Orient Express by Agatha Christie

BOOK RECEIVED:

  • You by Caroline Kepnes
  • Good Omens by Neil Gaiman & Terry Pratchett
  • The Ocean at the End of the Lane by Neil Gaiman

Have you ever experienced trying out something out of your comfort zone or trying out something you always thought you disliked? When it comes to reading, there are still a lot of genres I have yet to try. If you’ve been reading my blog for a while or if you know me personally, you already know that romance is my favorite genre because I grew up reading Nicholas Sparks and though I also find middle-grade books and books with a mix of YA fantasy + dystopian quite exciting reads because of their otherwise fast-paced plot and storyline, I haven’t read much books out of these genres. Continue reading

It Started With A Greeting & More

Whenever I write about how our relationship started, it always goes back to that one August evening that changed everything.

But I realized that I never got the chance to mention how we actually started talking and hanging out. Today, when I finally got home from a long and tiring day at work, I thought about that one conversation that started it all. It just kind of popped in my mind — it was so sudden, that I had to write about it. Continue reading

Heart On My Sleeve, Etc.

I’ve always been someone who wears her heart on her sleeve; someone who loves with all her heart. But growing up, I realized that the downfall of it all is that you let people see parts of you that you can’t get back, parts of you that only you know about; you let them see your fears, and think that they will share it with you, to lessen what you’re feeling, but in reality, you just let yourself be vulnerable to more pain.

It’s ironic that I get to write about all these things, yet I keep going in circles. I’ve always loved love and all the things that come with it — laughter, sadness, happiness, tears — but love isn’t supposed to be complicated, though love isn’t easy either. Love will throw challenges, obstacles, and trials that if you’re not strong enough to conquer, you’ll lose everything you’ve worked hard for.

I can say this over and over again, but most of the time, I go back in circles — I chicken out of being strong. Fear is eating me up, and I badly wanted to run from it and just get rid of this sinking feeling that I’ll eventually end up in tears but I don’t know how to fight it.

It sucks that deep inside, I know that the only reason I’m so sad and tired is because I keep letting fear take over me and I know what to do, yet why does it feel so hard to do so? Why does it feel so hard to just let things be?

Thoughts on Book Clubs & Book Buddies

I grew up with only books by my side.

Growing up, I was never allowed to go out with friends on Friday night outs or movie nights. So I ended up spending most of my Friday nights (and weekends) inside my room exploring the world through the magic of books. I find solace in the fact that even when I don’t get to go out all that much, I get to learn things about places I’ve never been to.

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What’s for Halloween #2: Eight Films to Watch Before October Ends

In my previous post, I have listed books that you can add to your to-read list or articles that you can browse through the internet on those boring hours of the day that will totally add some spook to your reading challenge for the month of October.

So in this post, I’ll share with you 8 of my favorite films that are perfect to watch during the holiday or, if you’re a student, your semestral breaks. These are in no particular order as I’ve watched some of the films listed below a long time ago.

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What’s For Halloween #1

Halloween is one of the most looked-forward-to celebrations towards the end of the year because it’s that one time of the year when people get to show off their creativity by dressing up, decorating their homes, etc. And since Halloween is lurking around the corner, I bet everyone’s already busy and excited preparing for those Halloween parties and trick-or-treating!

But some people just aren’t into all that stuff; like those who enjoy spending these holidays by reading books. So if you’re one of those people but you still want to get into that “Halloween spirit,” then you’ve come to the right place.

In this post, I’ll be sharing some of the books (that I’ve read and/or want to read) and articles that will totally creep you out. Continue reading

Stuff I’ve Been Reading Lately #2

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BOOKS READ:

  • Wicked Fox (Gumiho, #1) by Kat Cho
  • Shiver by Junji Ito

BOOKS BOUGHT:

  • Prey by Michael Crichton
  • Winger (Winger, #1) by Andrew Smith
  • Angels & Demons (Robert Langdon, #1) by Dan Brown

BOOKS RECEIVED:

  • Timeline by Michael Crichton

Reading has always helped me get rid of all of my stresses — well, at least for the time being — and I am so happy that I am finally reading consistently these past couple of months. Though I am still not reading as many books a month as I used to back when I was still a student, at least I get to finish a few books a month and I think that’s already as much reading as I can get these days.

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5 Ramen Places

It wasn’t long ago when ramen became one of the most favorite Japanese food in the Philippines. Just a few years back, all these ramen places started popping everywhere in the Metro.

I have loved that warm bowl of rich, savory soup and noodles since I first tasted it but not as much as I loved it now. My boyfriend is also a “ramen lover” (if you’d like to call it that), and most of our dates are over this huge bowl of sumptuousness and over the course of a year, we’ve tried a couple of ramen places near our office. Continue reading