We knew that we wanted to have our honeymoon after the wedding so we can relax after all the tiresome craziness that is wedding planning. During the early days of the preparation period, the hubs wanted to go to Maldives, but given the situation with the pandemic where nothing seems to final because of the changes in restrictions, we didn’t opt to push for an international flight and went for a domestic adventure instead.
It has been almost a month since we entered the married life, I can still remember every detail of our wedding vividly in my head. To be perfectly honest, I was really anxious during the days leading up to the big day and there are times when I feel emotional whenever the thought of having to leave the place where I lived in for 27 years comes to mind. The night before the wedding, we were checked in at a hotel in Tagaytay and I was literally tossing and turning in my hotel bed — I couldn’t sleep at all and I was having mixed emotions; I was happy, excited, and ecstatic, but I was also nervous, anxious, and a little bit emotional. Good thing I asked everyone to leave my room early, so that I can try and fall asleep early as well because my call time was 3 AM — I think I finally fell asleep at around 12 midnight. Continue reading
Let me start with a quote that sums up what I’ve been feeling for the past few years that we’ve been together: “Because of you, I can feel myself slowly but surely becoming the me I have always dreamt of being.” — Tyler Knott Gregson
I have been telling you this almost every year since we started dating, and for this year, everyone is going to hear me say it: In my 27 years of existence, the past four years have been the most alive that I’ve felt. You have shown me that there are far better things that I have yet to see, experience, and explore. You made me feel all sorts of emotions, but most of all, you made me believe in the power of taking risks and I’m glad I took that leap of faith with you.
Loving you has always felt like walking into a house that I’ve never been in, but feeling like I am home. You are the home that I deserve, you are the peace that all of my past selves have been longing for for 27 years. With you, I finally felt what it means to be loved and to be someone’s favorite.
Thank you for tolerating the nerd in me the way that I tolerate the nerd in you. You are a walking encyclopedia and I can’t wait to learn more from you — I can’t wait for a lifetime of conversations about black holes, galaxies, the universe, and the stars. But beyond all of that, thank you for loving me the way that no one else ever did. You are the greatest decision I have ever made and whatever it is that we went through, I would go through all over again with no regrets and in a heartbeat. Truly, you are the biggest and only star that lit up my life and I promise to love you, cherish you, and take care of you from this day on.
And just like my favorite quote from one of my favorite books, I want you to know that: “I want everything with you. I want the holidays and the birthdays, the busy seasons and lazy weekends. I want peanut butter fingerprints on my desk. I want inside jokes and fights and everything. I want a life with you.” — The One, Kiera Cass
To be perfectly honest, I don’t know how to write this post without ugly-crying in front of my laptop! But I would like to start by saying that our story would never be complete without the whirlwind romance of how it all started. This post is pretty much the sequel to all of my previous attempts of writing the story of us. Jeez, it still feels surreal calling him my fiancé — we’ve openly talked about marriage and our future plans, but being here in this moment, I still couldn’t believe it. It’s been days, yet I still couldn’t believe it despite having started with the wedding preparation.
Our relationship may not be as long as others, but we sure have gone through so much together. I remember that a lot of people didn’t approve of our being together, some even said that what we have won’t last long. Looking back now, it feels like it’s been a lifetime ago, yet I can still remember it clear as day. My past self would feel so good knowing that they were wrong about us and knowing that she made the right choice.
I’ve always felt like I’m constantly making wrong decision after wrong decision my whole life because that’s what everyone around me made me feel, but with you, it just instantly felt right. You pushed me to be a better person and made me realize that taking risks is not always as scary as it seems.
Here, on the first chapter of the sequel of our book, I am both ecstatic and afraid. And that’s okay, because one thing that I learned from our relationship is that the most worthwhile moments are the ones that scare the hell out of me. You’ve proven that, time and time again. Continue reading
More than two years ago, around quarter to 10 in the evening, you were driving me home from our first date. It was a make-or-break kind of night, and I remember feeling very happy that we finally had the chance to spend time together without everyone’s eyes on us — always giving us that look, suspecting that we have a relationship. You know how everyone is.
While we were already dating, meaning spending our remaining lunch hours strolling around Greenbelt or rushing to the nearest Ministop for cheap coffee, we weren’t really together yet — it was kind of complicated. But our bosses and other workmates thought it best to keep us away from each other for reasons like, as they say, whatever we have will never work. Continue reading
Here’s an attempt at writing our story. I’m not really sure where or how to even begin with this post — How did we really begin?
As I have mentioned in all of my previous blog entries, I found you when I wasn’t even looking for anything or anyone for that matter. You were just there — someone I know by name and someone who I casually have small talks with whenever we ran into each other. It has always been like that between us and nothing more.
Thinking about it now, I can’t believe that just a couple of years ago, you weren’t even part of my life. It feels weird because I feel like I’ve known you forever. Looking back at those days, I can’t really tell when I started developing these feelings for you. There were just no signs — no anything. It just kind of happened.
I remember your birthday back in 2018 when I greeted you a few days early because your birthday fell on a weekend. I vividly remember you telling me to greet you again on your birthday, and I did send you a message via Messenger. The following day was a work day, and you dropped by my work station to give me some gummy worms. Casually, I asked you what it was for and you said that it was your birthday. I honestly didn’t know what to say because you really didn’t have to, so I managed a “thank you.”
I think our conversations frequented after that. It was supposed to be just friendly conversations, given that we both arrive early in the office. It was really nice having someone to talk to early in the morning. I guess, some time during those conversations, something just clicked — I couldn’t say when it all changed, but it did. I used to find myself looking at you from across the room and a lot of the time you were already staring back at me.
I knew I was in love when you started reading one of my favorite book series, Percy Jackson and the Olympians, and my stomach made a double-flip. It was the butterflies, as most people would call it. I just couldn’t stop talking about it, so you told me you were going to read it. It was just the sweetest thing.
Fast forward to 2020 and we’ve been through so much and created a lot of memories together. I know I told you this already, but being with you was the most alive I’ve felt in my 26 years of existence. You made me look at the world in a different angle — I know I still sometimes fail at doing so, but you always manage to get your point through, that everything in this world is all about perspective. It’s hard to do so sometimes when I feel like I am trapped (you know what I mean), but you always try your best to change my take on the world.
Thank you for making my life worthwhile and for bringing out the best in me. Happy anniversary, babe. I will always love you. ♡
Happy quarantine birthday! Who would’ve thought that this year would turn out this way? We have so many plans for this year, and I can still remember vividly how we’ve been arguing on how to spend my birthday before the quarantine was imposed. That was in March, it’s been three months and we’re now celebrating your birthday but we still haven’t seen each other since. It’s really frustrating because I miss you so bad. But as I’ve said in my birthday post, we have to be strong while being apart right now, so we can spend a lot of birthdays together in the future.
I know it’s hard celebrating at a time like this, but I hope you enjoy your cake and my not-so-surprise birthday gift that we’ve been talking about for weeks! Haha! I don’t like to be all that cheesy, but I want you to know that I will always love you and you will always be the best decision that I have made for my entire life. I am still happy that I’ve chosen to be with you and I will keep choosing you. I knew you were the right one because you never tolerated my immaturity during my red days even when we argue about it most of the time. I really do appreciate it because you are helping become a better version of myself.
I would also like to thank you for always being the stronger person in our relationship, I know that there are times when you also feel down because, hey, you’re also human. Yet, you always put me first by trying to appear strong for me and I will always appreciate you for that even if it may not look like so. I would also like you to know that I appreciate your patience and selflessness when it comes to understanding my overthinking, I know it’s also hard for you, but you always manage to help me through my episodes.
With all that, I wish you all the blessings that you deserve. I am looking forward to more adventures throughout the years with you. Thank you for making me feel the most alive I’ve been in 26 years. You are the greatest thrill and adventure of my life.
Thank you for your existence.
I love you.
Yours for always,
Lenn
I like the way you are
in your perfectly imperfect ways
exactly the way I’ve wanted and more
I can’t tell if it’s your disheveled hair
or maybe it’s how you see things differently
or the way that you look at me
I like the way you are
how your height makes me feel safe
and hugging you makes all the bad things go away
I can’t tell if it’s because of the warmth that your arms bring
when it’s wrapped around me
or the way that you shamelessly hold my hand in public
Or maybe it’s all of the above.
I like the way you know exactly what to do
and on the rare times that you do not
you are always looking for solutions when I’m all panicky
Maybe, but maybe it’s just that I used to like you
A lot…
…and now I’ve fallen completely in love.
“If happiness could be broken down into units of time, it would be those magical seconds when you said: ‘I don’t want to miss a lifetime with you, Lenn. I love you.'”
I choose you, too, and I’m truly grateful that we both made the same decision. I am so happy that I wouldn’t have to spend every waking hour of my life wondering what it would feel like being in your arms. I love you for always. ♥
Whenever I write about how our relationship started, it always goes back to that one August evening that changed everything.
But I realized that I never got the chance to mention how we actually started talking and hanging out. Today, when I finally got home from a long and tiring day at work, I thought about that one conversation that started it all. It just kind of popped in my mind — it was so sudden, that I had to write about it. Continue reading