Boyfriend Appreciation Post

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I never thought love could feel this good – I think God never gives us that perfect fairytale-like love that we’ve dreamt about as kids, but rather, he gives us the love we never thought we needed. Also, I think that when you find the right person for you, you’ll be surprised at how time can fly.

With you, everyday is something to celebrate about. Sometimes it amazes me how selfless you can be despite your claims of being selfish – you cheer me up despite having problems of your own and it moves me how despite feeling like you’re carrying the weight of the world, you still choose to carry a bit of mine for me.

You are such a blessing in my life despite me being so stubborn and reckless and just plain out of control. You are always willing to go that extra mile for me. Despite everything we’ve gone through, you’re still here and I will always be thankful for that. Thank you for always putting up with my mood swings.

I love you always and in all ways.

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2017, So Far

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2017 has got to be the most challenging year for me so far. To start off, I left my first job in the hopes that the next one will be better but it wasn’t. In fact, it was more stressful and toxic than the first one and knowing that I made the wrong decision just because I was so eager to leave my first job—that broke me. It was hard to accept, I didn’t know where to go from there and what else to do, I lasted there for about four months. I just couldn’t handle the stress anymore, and I’ve never felt more tired.

After leaving my second job, I was blessed with finding a new one in the company where I interned. It brought back so many memories, but it all felt great knowing that I wouldn’t have a hard time adjusting with some of the people in the office. But after training, I was challenged again. This time it is because I feel like my skills doesn’t fit the job. My friends encouraged me that I will eventually get used to it, and I did. But still, there are moments when I feel like I don’t really know and understand what I’m doing. I’m still here though, learning as though I’m a student again. I hope I can survive.

The whole year was indeed full of challenges, but one thing is for sure, I learned a lot. I realized so many things about myself, who my real friends are, and more importantly, I learned so many things about life and adulthood. It’s not easy and it never will be, but I got to face each day with my head held up high because there are people who have it harder than me, people who are suffering and fighting for their lives, so I can’t just give up.

In 2018, I have no resolutions, no wishes, and no expectations. I decided to just go with the flow and whatever happens, happens. The universe may be tough, but it also gives us hope. So here’s to new challenges, lessons, and cheers to better days ahead. 💖

Twenty-Third

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The day of my birthday, I was running around Makati to fix my requirements. I’ve recently resigned from my first job and I’m going start with my new job on Monday, so I’m both nervous and excited.

I tried to complete all the things I needed during the first two days of this week so that I could have the last remaining days for rest and reading. I’ve learned a lot of things in the past year and I can absolutely say that I’ve changed in some ways.

I’m just so thankful that I have so many awesome souls around me that usually helps me get up and still grind throughout each day. Life may be a little bit tough, but hey, life and most things usually gets tough before it even gets better and that should be enough for all of us to keep going.

I’m 23 now, and I still can’t believe it. In this post, I just wanted to thank everyone who has been there for me through all the good and bad and most especially God for giving me so many blessings that I know I may sometimes overlook or take advantage of.

Book Review: Milk and Honey by Rupi Kaur

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Rating: ★★★★★
Read: December 2016

Milk and Honey is a collection of poetry about surviving, love, pain, abuse and feminism. I loved how each poem was moving and powerful and made me relate to things I never knew I could relate to until I read this book.

And though I am not a fan of the author not using proper capitalization (I don’t know if she did it on purpose or if she has an explanation about it, please don’t hesitate to notify me), I loved every bit of her prose and poetry. It showed us, her readers, that her experiences made her stronger in time and I can’t describe this book more, because all I can think about when I try to describe it is POWERFUL.

If you’re a fan of poetry, you should read this.
If you’re not a fan of poetry, you should read this.
Just read it.

This is one of my favorites:

“I thank the universe
for taking
everything it has taken
and giving to me
everything it is giving”

Recent Book Haul

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Here’s a quick book haul post — It’s been a while since I last posted a haul on my blog. I haven’t been buying books lately because I told myself at the start of the year that I’m going to minimize my book buying since I still got a load of TBR piled up in my room. But my grandfather have a friend who is selling some of her son’s used books and guess where that lead me.

My grandfather got all these for only ₱420! Can you believe that? So anyway, I’m still reading Curiosity House: The Shrunken Head by Lauren Oliver and H.C. Chester. Plus, I read some comic books over the weekend:

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Hi, it’s almost 8:00 p.m. and the weather’s matching with my mood and I’m writing just to release everything that’s bottled up inside my head. This is the only thing I can go to and the only thing I know that would help me think properly, somehow… My fingers can’t stop typing and my tears keep rolling down my cheek. I hate it when I’m like this.

I’ve been feeling a little bit lost lately, and life has been quite dragging. I know, I know, I keep on complaining but the level of tiredness I feel right now is just way over the average amount. Don’t get me wrong, 2016 has been one of the greatest years, so far, but sometimes, there are days or moments that the universe just likes to fuck things up. Sometimes, I feel like I’m always being tested and that it’s already way beyond what I can deal with.

I hate that I have so little people in my life whom I can talk with about these things. My best friend’s so far away and I know that she’s dealing with a lot of things right now, too, and I’m the only one who can listen to her and comfort her during these times. I feel so sad and most of the time it frustrates me because I don’t even know why I feel the way I feel. I try to be happy during the day, but when I get home, or when I’m alone, I just can’t get rid of it. Well, I don’t know what to do and this post is just a random rant and I have nothing else to say.

I just wanna feel okay again.

Book Review: Habang Wala Pa Sila by Juan Miguel Severo

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Rating: ★★★★★
Read: April 2016

It took only a single video for me to like this guy. It was my first time to listen to Spoken Word Poetry and I was instantly convinced that this guy really has the talent! The way he spits each and every word made it go straight to my heart. The way he delivered and performed left me awestruck. There was just so much power and passion in his eyes and voice. So when I heard about his book, I felt all giddy and excited.

The book is mainly a collection of all his poems and reading it made me fall in love with him even more. I don’t know what it is that he has, but each and every poem cut deep in my heart in a way I, myself couldn’t even understand. He has the power to make his readers and listeners feel his pain.

Ending this review with my favorite line from one of his poems, Naniniwala Ako:

At patawad, wag ka sanang mairita pero gusto kitang makita, maniwala ka, dahil minsan nakakasawa na nasa isip lang kita.

Book Review: Love & Misadventure by Lang Leav

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Rating: ★★★★★
Read: March 2016

I’ve always loved reading poems and has always been amazed by how beautifully it is written. I remember being so frustrated when I was a kid because I was so eager to make my own piece but I never really had the best inspiration, so I haven’t really come up with anything until recently, when I found him, the greatest inspiration of all. Suddenly, I know what Michael Faudet meant when he said, “I write because you exist.”

I really don’t know what took me so long to read Love and Misadventure, aside from the fact that it’s way too expensive. I cannot wait to read her two other books. All in all, I really loved this one. There are so many feelings attached to each piece that made it so real.

Here’s my favorite:

 

“Before I fell
in love with words,
with setting skies
and singing birds—
it was you I fell
in love with first.”

 

Book Review: White Hot Kiss by Jennifer L. Armentrout

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RATING: ★ ★ ★ ★

White Hot Kiss is the first ever book written by JLA that I’ve read. It took me some time reading it because it’s really been a struggle reading these days, having work and all. But the book was absolutely an awesome read!

It’s about Layla, trying so much to fit in with the family she grew up with. They are Wardens, entitled to keep the world demon-free, but Layla is only half-Warden, and the other half? Yup, you guessed it, demon. And just when she thought her life couldn’t get any worse, it did. Suddenly, everything she ever believed in came crashing down and the only way to find the truth out is to be friends with a demon. A demon so handsome she couldn’t say no.

I liked how this book has just the right mixture of fantasy and romance in it. I found myself shipping for Layla and Roth rather than Layla and Zayne. I really still have no idea who she will end up with at the end of the third book but I hope it’s Roth. He’s done a lot of undevil things just for her and that, for me, is the true meaning of love.

“I lost myself the moment I found you.”