Hi, it’s almost 8:00 p.m. and the weather’s matching with my mood and I’m writing just to release everything that’s bottled up inside my head. This is the only thing I can go to and the only thing I know that would help me think properly, somehow… My fingers can’t stop typing and my tears keep rolling down my cheek. I hate it when I’m like this.
I’ve been feeling a little bit lost lately, and life has been quite dragging. I know, I know, I keep on complaining but the level of tiredness I feel right now is just way over the average amount. Don’t get me wrong, 2016 has been one of the greatest years, so far, but sometimes, there are days or moments that the universe just likes to fuck things up. Sometimes, I feel like I’m always being tested and that it’s already way beyond what I can deal with.
I hate that I have so little people in my life whom I can talk with about these things. My best friend’s so far away and I know that she’s dealing with a lot of things right now, too, and I’m the only one who can listen to her and comfort her during these times. I feel so sad and most of the time it frustrates me because I don’t even know why I feel the way I feel. I try to be happy during the day, but when I get home, or when I’m alone, I just can’t get rid of it. Well, I don’t know what to do and this post is just a random rant and I have nothing else to say.
I just wanna feel okay again.