Plot Twist

Posted on 09/05/2018 by Lenn

This is probably one of the rawest things I have ever written.

I wasn’t looking for love, yet I found him – the line may sound cliché but the whole story is far from that. I found him under the strangest of circumstances, at the most unexpected place and time. It wasn’t something people or even I would’ve easily liked nor understood, but it happened.

If someone told me a few months back that I would be in that situation, I would’ve laughed at their face. To be completely honest, I never really understood it until I was in the exact same situation and defending myself won’t make it right nor would it make me any less at fault. Maybe I was selfish but being with him felt more right than anything I ever did my entire life. I can apologize to the people I’ve hurt in the process, but I know my apology won’t lessen their pain.

I could’ve walked away right then and there if I followed my mind instead of my heart, but in that moment, I was willing to take the risk. Heck, I was even willing to jump headfirst into the pits of the problem, if it meant spending the rest of my life with him. In fact, if I was ever given the chance to walk away beforehand, I would still choose to go through the process of falling in love with him.

The thing is, I have always tried to be the good girl everyone wants me to be. I’ve been following the rules my whole life but for once–just this once–I want to do something for myself. It’s not just about me wanting to break the rules nor trying to be a “rebel,” but it’s more about the thought that I’m letting the possibility of being genuinely happy pass me by just because I want to please the people around me.

There are no words to describe how I feel about him. We could hold each other’s hands forever and that still wouldn’t suffice how much I want to be near him. I never liked it when someone invades my personal space, but somehow, with him, invading my personal space isn’t enough; suddenly, ‘too close’ isn’t quite enough.

So, tell me, how could I ever let the greatest plot twist of all time slip away from my grasp just like that?

A Recap on All the TV Series & Movies I Watched Recently

Posted on 06/06/2018 by Lenn

To start with, there are a lot of TV series that I’ve started watching before but didn’t really caught up on because the season breaks are too long that most of the time, I lose interest. Recently, though, I signed up for Netflix’s free-trial and have watched a lot of series. I used to just watch some of the series that I think is interesting online, but the server of the website where I was watching has always been down recently and it frustrated the heck out of me. So I decided to sign up for Netflix and just pay for it after the free-trial. So here they are:

Riverdale (2016- )

It all started with Riverdale. I was just instantly hooked the moment I watched the pilot episode almost two years ago, but as usual, I got tired of waiting for the next episode to be uploaded online. And then, I tried watching it again this year and I just couldn’t get enough. The reason I got so interested in watching this series is because I have always been a big fan of the Archie comics and Riverdale’s dark take on the comics has really piqued my interest.

Stranger Things (2016- )

I didn’t really think I’d like this as much as I do now. My cousin has been so addicted to this series, so I started watching it after I finished the last episode of Riverdale Season 2. I personally loved Dustin because he’s so adorable! I can’t wait for season 3.

Gerald’s Game (2017)

This was a hell of a movie. It messed not only with my mind, but with my emotions. Upon watching the film, all I can think about is, “How much of mess would it cause me if I read the book?” Because I know how Stephen King writes. He’s very talented to the point that he can and he will get in your head.

When We First Met (2018)

All I can say about this movie is that it’s too cute. I love the idea of the film and the twist at the end. The message (for me, at least) is that no matter how much you try to alter things, what’s meant to be will always find its way. So might as well just do your best at everything because you will always end up where you’re supposed to be.

2017, So Far

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2017 has got to be the most challenging year for me so far. To start off, I left my first job in the hopes that the next one will be better but it wasn’t. In fact, it was more stressful and toxic than the first one and knowing that I made the wrong decision just because I was so eager to leave my first job—that broke me. It was hard to accept, I didn’t know where to go from there and what else to do, I lasted there for about four months. I just couldn’t handle the stress anymore, and I’ve never felt more tired.

After leaving my second job, I was blessed with finding a new one in the company where I interned. It brought back so many memories, but it all felt great knowing that I wouldn’t have a hard time adjusting with some of the people in the office. But after training, I was challenged again. This time it is because I feel like my skills doesn’t fit the job. My friends encouraged me that I will eventually get used to it, and I did. But still, there are moments when I feel like I don’t really know and understand what I’m doing. I’m still here though, learning as though I’m a student again. I hope I can survive.

The whole year was indeed full of challenges, but one thing is for sure, I learned a lot. I realized so many things about myself, who my real friends are, and more importantly, I learned so many things about life and adulthood. It’s not easy and it never will be, but I got to face each day with my head held up high because there are people who have it harder than me, people who are suffering and fighting for their lives, so I can’t just give up.

In 2018, I have no resolutions, no wishes, and no expectations. I decided to just go with the flow and whatever happens, happens. The universe may be tough, but it also gives us hope. So here’s to new challenges, lessons, and cheers to better days ahead. 💖

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Almost December

Posted on 11/27/2017 by Lenn

I know I haven’t updated for a month or two, it’s just that I’ve been really busy with my new work. Even though the company that I currently work at is the same company where I’ve had my internship, adjusting has been really challenging. The transition hasn’t been easy as I do creative writing in my previous work while I do technical writing here. There were times that I felt like I will never get the hang of this, that things will crumble down for me again because it’s been so long since I last dealt with technical stuff like this, but I have to believe in myself more.

In fact, this whole year has been filled with challenges – I’ve left two jobs in just a year. It was hard, I feel like all the choices that I made were wrong. But I eventually learned how to cope and forgive myself for the wrong decisions that I made as it will make me stronger as time goes by.

Aside from work-related stuff, this year has also been crazy when it comes to my health. I constantly suffer from massive headaches which has been really bothersome. I recently got my eyes checked and learned that my eye grade has increased for both eyes, and I’m hoping that after using my new specs, my headaches would subside. Otherwise, I’d have to get my head checked too.

On the brighter side of things, 2017 has been a really great reading year for me. I’ve read 100 books out of my goal of 60 as of today! I hope that next year will be a better one as I plan to read more. Reading has been one of the things that keeps me sane despite all that’s happened this year, it was my stress-reliever and escape from the world when it seems like it’s too much. Well, aside from my year being filled with DC superhero-related books and comic books, I can say that Percy Jackson has been a really big part of my 2017. I just can’t imagine what I was doing the past couple of years and why I haven’t read it until this year, but as I keep saying, it’s better late than never!

There goes my quick update, I hope everyone’s having a good time and that we hold on tight as the end of the year is fast-approaching. 🙂

Book Review: Words in Deep Blue by Cath Crowley

Posted on 09/28/2017 by Lenn

Rating: ★ ★ ★ ★ ★
Read: August 2017

Another YA Contemporary Romance I’ve read is Words in Deep Blue by Cath Crowley and I swear I just digested the whole book in one sitting, it’s that adorable!

Here, we follow Rachel Sweetie and Henry Jones, who have been bestfriends for years and have been inseparable since they first met. Rachel has been secretly in love with him, but Henry has his eyes on Amy. Before Rachel leaves for Sea Ridge, she left a Henry a letter declaring her love inside one of Henry’s favorite books in the Letter Library, a section Henry’s family’s secondhand bookshop.

This book just gave me all the feels and I just can’t explain how much I loved it. I can drink up all the words Cath Crowley has written in this one. Her writing is astoundingly adorable which made this book so freaking endearing. The humor and the “drama” is balanced.

I just love books that talk about books. I’ve jotted down so many titles that were mentioned in this book that I wanted to read soon. I like how it also taught us that we should never let go of the things we love, even when it gets hard, especially when it gets hard. I loved, loved, loved this book to bits and I recommend it to everyone. Just read it!

“If we all gave up on the thing we love when it gets hard, it’d be a terrible world.”

Book Review: Playlist for the Dead by Michelle Falkoff

Posted on 09/15/2017 by Lenn

Rating: ★ ★ ★
Read: August 2017

I’ve been reading YA Contemporary books recently and in this one, we follow Sam who’s grieving for his bestfriend’s death. They’ve been friends their whole lives and, well, each other’s the only one they’ve got. So when Hayden took his life, Sam was lost and the only thing he’s left with is a playlist. Throughout the book, Sam’s trying to figure out the answers to why Hayden did what he did using the playlist he’s left Sam with.

I liked the idea of this book and how lessons are thrown in chapter after chapter. I gave it a flat three stars because I just felt like I didn’t connect to the characters as much as I thought I would. The book entirely wasn’t dragging, but I feel like it lacked something along the way, like, there could’ve been more.

The cover was amazing and I liked it very much. Michelle Falkoff’s writing was okay, and I’m definitely going to read Pushing Perfect.

“People are going to say a lot of things. And some of it will be helpful, and some of it will be annoying, and lots of it will get on your nerves. But they’re saying it because they found it helpful when they lost someone. They mean well.”