Trigger Warning: This post is messed up, you don’t have to read it. I just want to get it out of my head (if that’s even possible).

I feel so pressured lately that everyday I wake up to the thought that I’m running out of time. Suddenly, everything I do feels like it’s going to have a huge impact to my future.

I don’t know what to think of it, really. I’m the type of person who get so stressed easily, and these thoughts are seriously stressing me out. But on the other hand, it’s the first time in my whole life that I have a solid image of the future and I badly want to hold on to that image.

For the first time in 25 years (almost), I know what I want and I know where I need to be and who I want to be with. All I need to figure out right now is how I will execute everything.

I feel like I’m running out of time and I don’t want that. I don’t want all this to slip away just like that. I didn’t go through all that just to lose everything I’ve worked so hard for.