900 Books Later: Growing Through Stories

I’ve been reading for as long as I can remember—truly. I don’t have a single memory of my life before books. They’ve always been there, woven into every season of my childhood and every version of who I’ve become. Continue reading

🧡 The Warmth of Tanned Pages: A Book’s Character

The crisp, bright white of a brand-new book will always have its own charm—clean, untouched, and full of quiet promise. But there’s a different kind of magic in pages that have tanned or even foxed over time. That soft amber glow and those faint, freckled specks—born from years of light, humidity, and simply existing on someone’s shelf—feel like the book’s own story unfolding alongside the one printed on its pages.

And here’s the thing: we all have our preferences when it comes to the books we collect. Some love that pristine, barely-opened look. Others gravitate toward the warm, seasoned feel of a volume that’s clearly lived. Personally, I love both. I’ve been reading literally since I can remember—from stuffed cloth books for babies, to thick cardboard storybooks for toddlers, to chapter books for intermediate readers, to fantasy novels and beyond. Naturally, a lot of my older books have tanned (and even foxed) through the years, and that never made me love them any less. If anything, it made them feel more mine.

A tanned or foxed page is a mark of time and testimony. Every shade of cream or brown, every tiny constellation of reddish spots, hints at where the book has been—moments by a sunlit window, evenings under a lamp, or entire seasons resting quietly on a shelf. And then there’s that familiar “old book smell”—lignin gently breaking down into that soft, vanilla-like scent that feels like being welcomed home.

The texture shifts too. The paper softens ever so slightly, turning velvety under your thumb. Holding a timeworn book feels like touching a memory.

And honestly, I’m really glad dehumidifiers exist these days. They help keep books from deteriorating too quickly, prevent mold, and slow down foxing and excessive tanning—especially in humid climates like what we have in the Philippines. But even then, time will still leave its gentle mark. Books will still age, still tan, still evolve in their own quiet ways.

In a world obsessed with the spotless and replaceable, a book softened by years carries a kind of steady authenticity. It says:

“I’ve been read. I’ve been loved. I’ve lasted.”

Dog-ears, faint smudges, tiny rings from forgotten cups—none of these diminish the experience; they enrich it. And whether you prefer crisp white pages or warm, timeworn ones, there’s beauty in both. One is the beginning, the other is the becoming.

Series Recommendation: The Summer I Turned Pretty by Jenny Han

I’ve already posted a reel about this series and raved about it just a couple of days ago on Instagram, but I can’t help it! They’re just so beautiful. Also, this is my first-ever Fairyloot purchase. 🥹
 
But more than just being pretty on my shelves, this trilogy means so much to me. Some books just stick with you no matter how much time passes, and for me, this one’s exactly that. It was my roman empire back in college—I was so deep in my feelings over Belly’s summers at Cousins Beach, her coming-of-age journey, the love, the heartbreak… all of it had me in a chokehold. Even now, it’s still one of my ultimate comfort reads.
 
A while back, I gave my old copies with the human covers to my younger cousin when she was old enough to read them, so she could experience the emotional rollercoaster for herself. But of course, I had to get the colorful editions for myself—because I could never not have this series in my collection. No regrets, obviously.
 
And then last year, when I saw that Fairyloot was releasing special editions? Yeah, there was no way I wasn’t getting them. And now that they’ve finally arrived, I cannot get over how beautiful they are.
 
One of the reasons I loved this series so much was because of the beach setting and the atmospheric way Jenny Han described Cousins. I could feel the summer heat, smell the salty air, and picture every little moment by the ocean. It made the story hit even harder.
I’m so excited to reread and revisit this world again—I can’t wait to dive back into all the messy emotions, summer nostalgia, and heartbreak.
 
If you’ve read this series, let’s talk—are you Team Conrad or Team Jeremiah? 👀

Stuff I’ve Been Reading Lately #37

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BOOKS READ (August-September):

  • The Love Rematch (The Love Match, #1) by Kay Marie
  • The Magic Fish by Trung Le Nguyen
  • Channel X: A Streaming Service to Kill For by Matt Shaw
  • The Honeymoon Crashers (Unhoneymooners, #0.5) by Christina Lauren
  • Punch Love Drunk Vol. 1 by Moscareto
  • Priest (Priest, #1) by Sierra Simone
  • The Opportunist (Love Me With Lies, #1) by Tarryn Fisher
  • Petrified Women by Jeremy Ray
  • Book Lovers by Emily Henry
  • Dead Body Disposal by Jon Athan
  • Can’t Forget You by Kristen Middleton
  • Fresh Meat by Christopher Kai
  • Frisky Connections (Frisky Bean, #0.5) by Michelle Mars
  • Children of the Corn by Stephen King
  • Confessions of a Shopaholic (Shopaholic, #1) by Sophie Kinsella

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Book Review: The Last House On Needless Street by Catriona Ward

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Title: The Last House On Needless Street

Author: Catriona Ward

Publication Date: September 16, 2021

Number of Pages: 363

Format: Paperback

Publisher: Viper

Genre: Thriller, Mystery

Synopsis:

‘I haven’t read anything this exciting since Gone Girl’ – STEPHEN KING

‘Books like this don’t come around too often’ – JOANNE HARRIS

This is the story of a murderer. A stolen child. Revenge. This is the story of Ted, who lives with his daughter Lauren and his cat Olivia in an ordinary house at the end of an ordinary street.

All these things are true. And yet some of them are lies.

You think you know what’s inside the last house on Needless Street. You think you’ve read this story before. In the dark forest at the end of Needless Street, something lies buried. But it’s not what you think…
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Book Review: My Mother’s Eyes by Jeremy Ray

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Title: My Mother’s Eyes

Author: Jeremy Ray

Publication Date: December 17, 2021

Number of Pages: 39

Format: E-book

Publisher: Ray Publishing

Genre: Contemporary Fiction

Synopsis:

“You’re wrong, Jordie. You’ll see. Draw me just one more time.”

No one knows if his mother will come out of her coma, so fourteen-year-old Jordie memorializes her in the only way he knows how: by drawing her. His older brother doesn’t approve of these sketches, but Jordie’s determined to capture the person she used to be.

Unfortunately, Jordie must draw her from memory because his mom didn’t keep pictures, and her body in the hospital no longer looks like her. But the images of her are quickly fading, and if he doesn’t get a drawing right soon, the mother he remembers may slip away forever. No matter how close Jordie gets to completing a drawing, his mom’s most vital feature always evades him.

Will Jordie capture his mother’s eyes? Or are they and his mother gone forever?
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Book Review: Magnum Opus by Caitlin Marceau

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Title: Magnum Opus

Author: Caitlin Marceau

Publication Date: August 30, 2022

Number of Pages: 63

Format: E-book

Publisher: Timber Ghost Press

Genre: Horror, Supernatural

Synopsis:

Charlotte Curran is willing to do whatever it takes to make sure her newest book is a best seller… even if that means murdering her best friend.

Nobody suspects her of killing renowned author Kim Lavoie, but when Charlotte starts seeing Kim everywhere she turns, she quickly realizes it’s more than just her guilty conscience haunting her. With each passing day, Kim’s judging gaze grows more difficult to escape.

Magnum Opus is a dark look at the price of fame and the legacy we leave behind. Continue reading

Book Review: My Lovely Wife in the Psych Ward by Mark Lukach

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Title: My Lovely Wife in the Psych Ward

Author: Mark Lukach

Publication Date: May 2, 2017

Number of Pages: 320

Format: Audiobook

Publisher: Harper Wave

Genre: Non-Fiction, Memoir, Mental Illness

Synopsis:

A heart-wrenching, yet hopeful, memoir of a young marriage that is redefined by mental illness and affirms the power of love.

Mark and Giulia’s life together began as a storybook romance. They fell in love at eighteen, married at twenty-four, and were living their dream life in San Francisco. When Giulia was twenty-seven, she suffered a terrifying and unexpected psychotic break that landed her in the psych ward for nearly a month. One day she was vibrant and well-adjusted; the next she was delusional and suicidal, convinced that her loved ones were not safe.

Eventually, Giulia fully recovered, and the couple had a son. But, soon after Jonas was born, Giulia had another breakdown, and then a third a few years after that. Pushed to the edge of the abyss, everything the couple had once taken for granted was upended.

A story of the fragility of the mind, and the tenacity of the human spirit, My Lovely Wife in the Psych Ward is, above all, a love story that raises profound questions: How do we care for the people we love? What and who do we live for? Breathtaking in its candor, radiant with compassion, and written with dazzling lyricism, Lukach’s is an intensely personal odyssey through the harrowing years of his wife’s mental illness, anchored by an abiding devotion to family that will affirm readers’ faith in the power of love. Continue reading

Stuff I’ve Been Reading Lately #35

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BOOKS READ:

  • Mommy Dearest by Willow Rose
  • Dark Matter by Blake Crouch
  • I’m Not Sam by Jack Ketchum
  • My Lovely Wife in the Psych Ward by Mark Lukach
  • Am I Beautiful? by Jon Athan
  • Magnum Opus by Caitlin Marceau
  • My Mother’s Eyes by Jeremy Ray
  • The Last House on Needless Street by Catriona Ward
  • Nibble, Nibble, Crunch by Willow Rose
  • The Babysitter: My Summers with a Serial Killer by Liza Rodman

BOOKS BOUGHT:

  • Lolita by Vladimir Nabokov
  • Trickery by Roald Dahl
  • Deception by Roald Dahl
  • Lust by Roald Dahl
  • Cruelty by Roald Dahl
  • War by Roald Dahl
  • Get a Life, Chloe Brown by Talia Hibbert
  • Peter Pan and Wendy by J.M. Barrie
  • Peter Pan by J.M. Barrie
  • Exquisite Corpse by Poppy Z. Brite
  • The Time Machine by H.G. Wells
  • Rosemary’s Baby by Ira Levin
  • A Kiss Before Dying by Ira Levin
  • The Chocolate Lover’s Wedding by Carole Matthews
  • The Secret Life of Bees by Sue Monk Kidd
  • The Half Sister by Sadie Jones
  • The Staycation by Cressida McLaughlin
  • Coffeehouse Angel by Suzanne Selfors
  • The Other Mrs. Miller by Allison Dickson
  • The Rising by Mira Grant

BOOKS RECEIVED:

  • The Outsider by Albert Camus
  • Snow Country by Yasunari Kawabata
  • Two Wrongs Make a Right by Chloe Leise
  • Madness by Roald Dahl
  • Stepford Wives by Ira Levin

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Book Review: I’m Not Sam by Jack Ketchum & Lucky McKee

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Title: I’m Not Sam

Author: Jack Ketchum & Lucky McKee

Publication Date: January 1, 2012

Number of Pages: 127

Format: E-book

Publisher: Cemetery Dance Publications

Genre: Horror, Psychological Thriller

Synopsis:

Now I’m way beyond confusion.

Now I’m scared.

I’ve slid down the rabbit-hole and what’s down there is dark and serious. This is not play-acting or some waking bad dream she’s having. She’s changed, somehow overnight. I don’t know how I know this but I sense it as surely as I sense my own skin. This is not Sam, my Sam, wholly sane and firmly balanced. Capable of tying off an artery as neatly as you’d thread a belt through the loops of your jeans.

And now I’m shivering too.

In some fundamental way she’s changed… Continue reading